Life has to be centered, focused on God. He is with us always. Sometimes doesn't feel that way.
Sometimes feels like he has stepped out of our reach. Sometimes feels like he isn't listening. but He is always there for us. He is with us. He does not leave us at all.
He does take us on a path that is hard, lonely, attacked, cold, dark. But what I am seeing, He is there, with us. There is something for us. Does not make sense. but will we trust what He is doing.
And all the crying I have done, there is a reason.
Also the world thinks they know God and all about them. But not like that at all. God wants us to give to other people. Reach out and love them. Forgive. Move on. Let go and Let God.
God never ever forces his love on anyone. Free choice. It always seems great for us. but not when other people can have free choice and hurt us.
But do we want people to be forced. i don't. I want them to love me because they do.
This path he has had us on for the last 1 1/2 is hard, Cause it seems nothing is happening at all. Just thanking and praising Him. All He ask. But it has been hard, hurtful. Even at times lonely.
But God has shown us some things, that because of our hurt we have new understanding.
good thing even though hard.
Wait and praise. One day at a time.
Tuesday, December 27, 2011
Monday, December 19, 2011
What I want for Christmas
As I have thought what I want for Christmas, not a lot. Not a lot of physical stuff.
There are things that I have really cried out to God for. Only He can do them.
Things are okay, but they don't satisfy. Somethings God can do. Others, it is people listening and following. But also trusting that God will fill me with what I need as I wait.
Things that God desires, for us all.
There are things that I have really cried out to God for. Only He can do them.
Things are okay, but they don't satisfy. Somethings God can do. Others, it is people listening and following. But also trusting that God will fill me with what I need as I wait.
Things that God desires, for us all.
Saturday, November 05, 2011
Forgiven
tonight, at church like any time I go to the Orchard, always feel God speaks to me.
Well, tonight near the beginning of the message, I thought of the person who read my blog and let others know.
You know whoever you are, I forgive you.
I don't know why you read my blog to begin with. Were you trying to get me in trouble. Did you want me to fail. did you want me to mess up or did you have something against me.
Well, you are forgiven. Why you did it is between you and the Lord. If you are happy, then so be it.
Yes I was hurt, and I realize should not have written those things on my blog. But, it hurt me more that if you were a friend you could never come to talk to me first.
May God just help in be who He desires you to be.
Well, tonight near the beginning of the message, I thought of the person who read my blog and let others know.
You know whoever you are, I forgive you.
I don't know why you read my blog to begin with. Were you trying to get me in trouble. Did you want me to fail. did you want me to mess up or did you have something against me.
Well, you are forgiven. Why you did it is between you and the Lord. If you are happy, then so be it.
Yes I was hurt, and I realize should not have written those things on my blog. But, it hurt me more that if you were a friend you could never come to talk to me first.
May God just help in be who He desires you to be.
Wednesday, November 02, 2011
seems like a long week
It is only Wednesday. sure seems much, much longer week.
I guess been lots, not really.
Poor Betsy had flat on Monday night, then decided that they needed to take it to get rim fixed. So we said could borrow escort. Then woke up Tuesday with the other flat just after she left to take it to tire place. So it was long day for her.
Mia was great.
Glad I get to watch her 3-4 days a week.
tomorrow head up to see other 3 grandkids. I love my grandkids, The babies can't say anything, but their smiles are enough. The other two, when they call my name. I love it. I am grateful they only live 6 hours away.
Just been one of those weeks. This waiting on God to do this miracle gets hard. It is lonely living here. We have no community, nothing.
I know God will come through. It is just don't feel really hardly anyone believes He can or would do it.
I always look forward to going to Kalla's church, always get a word from the Holy Spirit. sunday night we are going to Encounter, looking forward to that, hopefully some encouraging word. I really need to have some soaking ministry, really. But will take even a little bit.
Have some things to get done today. Some laundry, some cleaning,
Grateful I can stay at home. Watch Mia, be here with Seth, and be able to watch other grandkids when come down.
Thankful I can go to bible study.
I guess been lots, not really.
Poor Betsy had flat on Monday night, then decided that they needed to take it to get rim fixed. So we said could borrow escort. Then woke up Tuesday with the other flat just after she left to take it to tire place. So it was long day for her.
Mia was great.
Glad I get to watch her 3-4 days a week.
tomorrow head up to see other 3 grandkids. I love my grandkids, The babies can't say anything, but their smiles are enough. The other two, when they call my name. I love it. I am grateful they only live 6 hours away.
Just been one of those weeks. This waiting on God to do this miracle gets hard. It is lonely living here. We have no community, nothing.
I know God will come through. It is just don't feel really hardly anyone believes He can or would do it.
I always look forward to going to Kalla's church, always get a word from the Holy Spirit. sunday night we are going to Encounter, looking forward to that, hopefully some encouraging word. I really need to have some soaking ministry, really. But will take even a little bit.
Have some things to get done today. Some laundry, some cleaning,
Grateful I can stay at home. Watch Mia, be here with Seth, and be able to watch other grandkids when come down.
Thankful I can go to bible study.
Monday, October 31, 2011
What a morning
Well, I woke up not rested. I had woken up about 1 something, now I know why, Mark had gotten up with Seth, who had to go to bathroom.
Any way, Mark had left for work and came home.
He proceeded to tell me that someone stole radio/cd player out of Echo in the garage.
Now we had not driven it since Friday night. So sometime between Fri night and this morning, radio/cd player gone.
So early this morning, i had to call police station.
I wondered on Saturday morning when I went to Aldi's why no quarter in change thing.
It is a thing, but still. Just feel violated.
I hope people are happy, Obama has done a what as president. People stealing. I know it happens, but how much worse is it going to get.
Just frustrated, I really, really hope whoever did it gets caught, locked up.
Seriously, doesn't anyone wonder how this person got a new cd player.
I am mad, yesterday was one of those days.
Mark and I are so ready to move. We have NO Community here. We tried and tried. But nothing.
Why can't police take finger prints. Something so simple.
We hate living in city of Cincinnati any way. Just makes it even more.
I guess police will come. They have to take a report.
The thing is Zach bought this for the Echo. Just makes me mad.
Any way, Mark had left for work and came home.
He proceeded to tell me that someone stole radio/cd player out of Echo in the garage.
Now we had not driven it since Friday night. So sometime between Fri night and this morning, radio/cd player gone.
So early this morning, i had to call police station.
I wondered on Saturday morning when I went to Aldi's why no quarter in change thing.
It is a thing, but still. Just feel violated.
I hope people are happy, Obama has done a what as president. People stealing. I know it happens, but how much worse is it going to get.
Just frustrated, I really, really hope whoever did it gets caught, locked up.
Seriously, doesn't anyone wonder how this person got a new cd player.
I am mad, yesterday was one of those days.
Mark and I are so ready to move. We have NO Community here. We tried and tried. But nothing.
Why can't police take finger prints. Something so simple.
We hate living in city of Cincinnati any way. Just makes it even more.
I guess police will come. They have to take a report.
The thing is Zach bought this for the Echo. Just makes me mad.
Sunday, October 23, 2011
Zach
We went to Louisville to see Zach. We took him out to lunch, and got to spend time with him.
He has been learning and growing in the Lord. He has learned a lot. He is excited to go to India in January.
It is amazing to hear him talk about what he has learned. Growing in the Lord.
I am thankful we are less than 2 hours away and could go down to visit. We will pick him up in about 5 weeks for christmas break. Then shortly after the first of the year it is off to India.
Excited for him, but do miss him. But also so neat to see his heart yearn and hunger for God.
Thank you Lord
He has been learning and growing in the Lord. He has learned a lot. He is excited to go to India in January.
It is amazing to hear him talk about what he has learned. Growing in the Lord.
I am thankful we are less than 2 hours away and could go down to visit. We will pick him up in about 5 weeks for christmas break. Then shortly after the first of the year it is off to India.
Excited for him, but do miss him. But also so neat to see his heart yearn and hunger for God.
Thank you Lord
Friday, October 21, 2011
Christian baseball players
We love baseball. Mark loves the St. Louis Cardinals, and I love Chicago Cubs. Well of course we are watching the World Series cause Cardinals are playing rangers. We are cheering Cardinals on.
Well, I was checking facebook, and CBN had a story on World Series. They talked to some players who played and are christians.
Found out one of Mark's favorite players, Molina is a christians.
Yippee! When you watch the games and see these players, you sense something different. Wonder and boom, find out they are brother in the Lord.
After a playoff game last week, we heard Holliday interviewed, and made the comment, Lord,
well he too is a believer.
I told Mark would love to have us write a book and get to meet all Christian baseball players. Would be fun, but would love to share all these believers with fans all over. For kids to hear about what matters most. You never know what God can do.
We love baseball and love the Lord. Nothing is impossible with God.
Well, I was checking facebook, and CBN had a story on World Series. They talked to some players who played and are christians.
Found out one of Mark's favorite players, Molina is a christians.
Yippee! When you watch the games and see these players, you sense something different. Wonder and boom, find out they are brother in the Lord.
After a playoff game last week, we heard Holliday interviewed, and made the comment, Lord,
well he too is a believer.
I told Mark would love to have us write a book and get to meet all Christian baseball players. Would be fun, but would love to share all these believers with fans all over. For kids to hear about what matters most. You never know what God can do.
We love baseball and love the Lord. Nothing is impossible with God.
Saturday, September 17, 2011
Zach is at YWAM
Well we took Zach to Louisville for YWAM.
It is neat to see him following the direction the Lord is leading.
But it is hard. He won't be home till Dec for christmas break before he heads overseas for mission trip.
This morning I said to Mark, that God could start us moving. Send the money to pay the house off.
There is nothing for us down here. Zach isn't working now. So that was kinda like the last thing we needed to be here for.
The house is too big. We have NO COMMUNITY over here.
We moved here 5 yrs ago for a church plant and that did not work.
So we are ready. Ready for community.
Just a little sad. I know this is what God has for him, but still hard.
I think it makes the loneliness we deal with even harder.
And the fact Seth has no little kids to play with. No neighbors with kids.
So we wait and see what God is going to do.
Besides this house is way to big for the three of us.
So I will take some time to deal with this.
Will be exciting to hear all that God does for Zach.
I thank God for this opportunity for him.
It is neat to see him following the direction the Lord is leading.
But it is hard. He won't be home till Dec for christmas break before he heads overseas for mission trip.
This morning I said to Mark, that God could start us moving. Send the money to pay the house off.
There is nothing for us down here. Zach isn't working now. So that was kinda like the last thing we needed to be here for.
The house is too big. We have NO COMMUNITY over here.
We moved here 5 yrs ago for a church plant and that did not work.
So we are ready. Ready for community.
Just a little sad. I know this is what God has for him, but still hard.
I think it makes the loneliness we deal with even harder.
And the fact Seth has no little kids to play with. No neighbors with kids.
So we wait and see what God is going to do.
Besides this house is way to big for the three of us.
So I will take some time to deal with this.
Will be exciting to hear all that God does for Zach.
I thank God for this opportunity for him.
Monday, September 05, 2011
How things change
Last year I was praying for us moving. I had been praising and thanking God that He would provide all we needed to move. Now a year later, still praying and waiting.
Memorial Day weekend Sara moved out. Now in less than 2 weeks, Zach is moving to Louisville to join YWAM.
He will come home for break for christmas. Then go back, and head overseas. On a mission trip.
So Sara and Zach will have moved out, and Mark, Seth and I are still stuck here, waiting and waiting for God to perform the miracle so we can move.
It is hard.
Changes.
Living down here, with no community.
It is hard.
We live here, that is it.
We so need to get rid of the things, so when we do move or even begin to pack, we don't have as much.
I am excited for Zach. Following God's lead. But will miss Him.
Changes. Hard sometimes
Soon I will start watching Mia. I told Mark tonight, so nice having a grandchild around. But makes me miss our other 3 grandchildren.
One day at a time.
Memorial Day weekend Sara moved out. Now in less than 2 weeks, Zach is moving to Louisville to join YWAM.
He will come home for break for christmas. Then go back, and head overseas. On a mission trip.
So Sara and Zach will have moved out, and Mark, Seth and I are still stuck here, waiting and waiting for God to perform the miracle so we can move.
It is hard.
Changes.
Living down here, with no community.
It is hard.
We live here, that is it.
We so need to get rid of the things, so when we do move or even begin to pack, we don't have as much.
I am excited for Zach. Following God's lead. But will miss Him.
Changes. Hard sometimes
Soon I will start watching Mia. I told Mark tonight, so nice having a grandchild around. But makes me miss our other 3 grandchildren.
One day at a time.
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